May you find the right guide like I did
I finally mustered the courage to seek help from licensed professional during covid. Not only was TYHO available online, they provided therapists' profile for users to assess suitability. My experience with Punitha has been life-changing. I felt calm, heard and assured after every session. I could trust that she knows what she's doing (given her background and experience in areas such as CBT etc). If you are tired of listening to opinions of unlicensed and untrained friends, and you've been struggling to feel better mentally and emotionally.... you could give TYHO a try. Hope that someday, you will be able to find the right guide to help alleviate the weight on your shoulders. May you feel better soon. MW