I've struggled with MST
I've struggled with military, sexual trauma my entire life. It altered a personality that I didn't recognize anymore. Joyous has helped me break through a lot of disturbing memories. And although I was able to push through them, now is the time where the real work starts where I start building myself back up again. I may understand what happened to me in a better context, however, I am forever changed by these experiences. I may not wake up in a cold, sweat and panic attacks, but what has happened has shaped me to a different person. I've accepted what's happened, however I have been changed forever. I wish that joyous would allow us to track our progress to see if this is actually working. I've spent 23 months almost 2 years on ketamine. And there were times where I felt it didn't work. And I'm not really sure if it's the medicine or the therapy or the yoga or the meditation. Or maybe it's all of it. But having the mental break that I need to process all of this is going to be continuous for the rest of my life. This medication will help you push through some of the most darkest memories and will assist in helping process that thought. However, I don't want to give anyone false hope to think this is a cure-all. You will still have to be accepting of those intrusive thoughts and you embrace them and it becomes a part of you. The person you become after the breakthrough is ultimately up to you.